F A S H I O N // Victoria's Secret PINK | STRAPPY RACERBACK BIKINI TOP

Photo Courtesy of Victoria's Secret PINK

Why is currently my favorite bathing suit top? Simple. No removable padding.
Holy geez, it's so convenient not having to remove the padding or getting sand in that place that holds the padding. It's perfectly lined and not heavily pushed up so I absolutely love this swim top. I wish they made other prints but I guess one of every style is better than having multiple of one style but then again I have a bunch of bandeaux swim tops. Only con about this is the strappy back, so if you hate tan lines, this top is now for you. I'm sorry I buy things on sale so that this review is late for those you can no longer by this top. But if you're one of the few that have been holding onto this and not sure if you want to keep it, you should keep it! Haha. I got the color in the picture so I lucked out on that since the only color available on the website is like a teal and bright green.

Enjoy the rest of summer! x

F A S H I O N // Issues I have with the standards of Modeling

Growing up was a real struggle for me, especially because modeling was something I was always interested in. The race thing never really bothered me, but the height issue was something that prevented me from achieving this ambition. From the research I've done, majority of women in the US are around 5'5", so why do we have this unrealistic person walking the runway? They are clearly in the tails of the normal distribution, thus the odds of them actually occurring in everyday life is a lot smaller than if someone who is 5'5". Why don't we have people who are shorter walking the runway? Oh because the dresses are made for tall people aka the people wearing them are the only ones who can buy it. I saw a casting call for "No Rest For Bridget" a boutique in Southern California, and the requirements of course were 5'9" and what not. Like what the heck man. I've bought clothes from them and they fit perfectly fine on someone who is 5'2" so why the hell am I not allowed to audition to model for them? It's so unrealistically shitty.

ALSO, being older, the race thing does bother me. Because realistically, what are the odds of someone who is asian being taller than 5'9". Unless you're mixed or have some really good genes, your hopes of modeling and being asian are really slim. Thanks a lot society, you've really ruined my self-esteem.

FORTUNATELY, there are other avenues of "modeling" which can be amateur-ish but at least it gives me something. Thank goodness for Instagram, Youtube, and Lookbook who don't give a rats ass of how tall you are because you just do your own thing.

Thanks for listening to my little rant.

F A S H I O N // Spinning

Sometimes all we need are the pretty colors. Round and Round they go. Only at night can we see their true beauty. I want to become one with them. I only want to live in the lights. Can't you see? We are meant to be.

T O P // Brandy Melville
D E N I M // Levi's
S N E A K E R S // Converse
B A G // Thrifted

Mood - Ambitious

It's raining in Southern California. A sweet gift to us down here as drought has become our eminent doom. It drives my soul: the cool weather and the water drenching the earth. I live for nights like these.

H A I R // Manic Panic | Vampire Red Review

Being a red head was one of the last things I ever thought of becoming: 1) it seemed like a typical color people would dye their hair, and 2) it just never crossed my mind. I had originally planned to dye my hair Fuchsia Shock, which appeared to be a combination of red and purple dye (which I loved from when we did the galaxy hair), but I guess Sally's doesn't carry that one in store, so my mom came back with Vampire Red. I can't tell you how much I like how Manic Panic applies to the hair. I didn't even use a brush and just used my bare hand and applied it like it was conditioner and I was pretty successful at getting every spot on my head.

Right after first wash

It was REALLY red when I first dyed it and now faded to somewhat a pastel-like red and mixed with purple streaks because the color from the previous dye is coming through.

Five weeks later

This dye has been a pain though. Five weeks later it is STILL bleeding when I wash my hair. I haven't gone swimming with it so I would imagine it would continue to bleed or maybe finally stop bleeding?  Who knows. I definitely don't think this will fade light enough for for me to use a pink or green color, but probably have to transition into a purple but we'll see!

F A S H I O N // Life is better in Black, White...and Red

I love Cali because the Cali life is all about that relaxed vibe, where the weather is perfect anywhere on the West Coast, and you can find anything you've ever imagined, from food to clothing to music. Mermaids can walk amongst people and unicorns are no longer a dying breed. It's the place where anything is possible but only if you work for it, humble yourself, and find the right people. You'll definitely need the right pair of shoes and a rockin' outfit to make you stand out in this sea of people.

S U N // Burberry
D R E S S // No Rest for Bridget
B A G // Coach
B R A C E L E T S // H&M/Alex & Ani/Juicy Couture
F L A T S // Banana Republic